The past six months, thus far.

So the last six months of my life have been, well, just out of control. I don't mean I have been partying or going on wild adventures. What I mean to say here is that I haven't had much of handle on myself or reality. Everything I knew for the previous five years was kind of just thrown out in an instant. Now it's time to change that. Now it's time to change everything and get back on my feet. In the next six months I plan on changing not only my current situation but my health and outlook on well, pretty much everything. Don't expect me to find god or some other faith but expect me to find myself and everyone around me. I know all of you are right there with me but sometimes I have trouble seeing you. Keep reaching out maybe I'll find you. Until then it's all about looking forward. I used to feel like an outsider looking in but now I feel like im outside looking out. Out ahead in to the future, a better place for me, for you , for us.